I HATE Being Sick
I really hate being sick.
So far, I've been pretty much flued out all week. Today, believe it or not, is the best I've felt in a while and I still can't talk properly (or at all, I don't really know I've not had the opportunity to talk to anybody yet today). On the plus side, at least I can swallow today, which is nice. I seem to be incapable of being just a little teeny tiny bit sick, its like healthy or nothing.
So, in other news... well I haven't been anywhere or done anything, I tend to fall asleep at the drop of a hat and that's about it. The shadow of Christmas is now extremely large, what with it being only a week away, and I have obviously done almost exactly nothing to prepare myself. This is not ideal, to say the least, but I guess I'll just have to be super-busy next week, assuming I can move about and stuff... well, even if I can't move about and stuff, I'm still gonna have to do it, aren't I?
Yeah, this was a great post. Well done.
See, but I'm getting sleepy again...
With Some Righteous Kung-Fu
Today has been nice, really just pleasant and relaxed and sunny. I've not done anything of any major significance at all, played video games mostly, and I'm about to watch a movie, and then if I can stay up late enough I'll watch the football (NFL stylee, of course).
So, what else has happened this week? Well, there's been a lot of trouble with a certain on again off again friend of mine, but I don't normally go into the details of my personal relationships here and today isn't gonna be any different, but lets just say that for the second time this week, she's not talking to me for no particularly good reason that I can see. My response today is "well, who cares?", I have other friends whose company I enjoy and who actually make me feel good about myself without giving you the queasy feeling that you're tip-toeing around a keg of something highly explosive and incredibly volatile. So I know which way I'm gonna go.
In other news... erm there isn't a great deal of other news really. The most exciting thing I've done is buy myself a new keyboard because... well for the past couple of years I've been using one of those ergonomic keyboards, y'know the ones that are all funny shaped? Well I can type really quickly on that one, but when I go back to a regular keyboard my typing is really quite pitiful... I feel unnatural and I peck at the keys usually missing more often than I hit. So I thought I'd get myself a regular keyboard, so I can get used to typing on one of those again, because, should I through some miracle get a job that requires typing, something office based perhaps, then I'm gonna NEED to be able to use a regular keyboard. Anyway, long story short, I saw some funky black Microsoft ones for a tenner when I was out shopping with Erin, and I bought one. I'm using it now, and its very cool. My typing is starting to get back to a decent speed, but I'm still not used to the spacing of the keys, so I frequently end up typing absolute gibberish...
Yeah, it's actually been a pretty good week, but I cou;ldn't put my finger on the why... I've been out a couple of times with fun people, I've played video games... I've just had a nice time. I suppose at some point I'm going to have to address the impending shadow of Christmas, it is after all, only two weeks away...
People, People Everywhere...
The thing about December, in fact the thing about anytime from early November onwards, is that anywhere with a shop is infested with hoards of people who have no idea where they are, or what they're doing there. So going into town this morning was a nightmare. Seriously, I don't know what it is about Christmas that bring these people out of the woodwork, but there they are, every year, without fail. I mean, its not like they hold Christmas on a surprise day, that's only announced three weeks in advance, its the same fucking day every year! And it is just ONE DAY, and yet it provokes all this hysteria... I dunno, not really a massive fan of Christmas these days.
So, anyway, I battled through aimless crowds, looked into a few of my regular haunts, but I really couldn't be doing with the whole "people everywhere" experience.
As you can probably tell, my PC is back in action! Although its really kinda not the same PC, new mobo and CPU required after 'mysterious' failure. Still, it works again and I am happy!
I'm sure I'd thought of many other things to write about whilst I was slipping and sliding on Northampton's icy pavements this morning, but right at this moment they elude me.
Cursed!
Goddammit! My new PC has packed in, it won't boot at all this morning, it just sits there with its fans whirring, looking like a big black breeze block. So I'm back over here, on old faithful. In a lot of ways this isn't a massive shock (although I'm having to use a strange keyboard so my typing is awful), but I was just getting used to the awesomeness of my new machine, and now it's gone...
Nothing Very Much Is Illuminated
Last night, as I was drifting off to what passed for sleep, I had this really weird memory/feeling. It was something to do with being a child, and the weeks we'd spend during the summer staying with my grandparents, and there was a sense of... anticipation and a colour, a smell... a feeling that something wonderful was gonna happen. Of course, as soon as I became aware that this was happening, the image became slippery and elusive, and I couldn't hold onto it or the feeling. All I was left with was an impression of the feeling that was unbearably vague. I dunno if that makes sense at all, but there was something there, something I almost remember, and it was something really happy and cool...
Last night was miserable though, overall. I think I was better off before, when I didn't go anywhere or know people, cos I was basically okay with my own company and could find ways to entertain myself. But now I have some idea of what I am missing socialising with folk, and it was just really fucking miserable and I couldn't settle down and enjoy the things I used to enjoy.
Maybe I should return to my life of isolation, you can't be disappointed if you don't want anything, right? Although you probably can't put
that djinni back in its bottle...
