The Importance of Being Idle

Stage Five: Acceptance

I never did get back to work in this short week, and I've had my ups and downs, as you would expect. I've spent the past few years in the belief that my condition was going to get better, that I would need less medication, that the bouts would become rarer and less severe with time, and that eventually they would go away all together, and I would for all intents and purposes be "normal". However the research and conversation of the past few weeks is leading me down another, darker path, and that is that this will never go away. It may even get worse as I age. And I'll have to learn how to live with it. People live with far, far worse, I know that, but I haven't, I have lead, for want of a better phrase, a pretty charmed life. Sure things have gone wrong, but rarely anything that can't be fixed, and even more rarely anything all that dreadful. I guess it's character building time, eh?
Everything else is a bit of a mixture. Yesterday was the (or perhaps a) royal wedding, and apart from most people getting a day off work, I hadn't given it a minutes thought. Yesterday when I woke up, not that late at all I might add, Peterborough seemed a ghost town, and I assume this is because everybody was inside watching the event on TV. I was not one of those people, and I was amazed that so many people were apparently swept up in the whole thing. My anti-monarchy feelings are no secret to anyone who has read my words before, but I harbour no personal ill will to the royal couple, I just strongly feel that their wedding is in essence none of my fucking business. Still, nice of them to give everyone a day off I suppose.
And now we're off work for just over a week for Becky's birthday. We were supposed to be going away, but what with the inconsistent hours I've had at work since the New Year and then my being ill we've decided to cancel that, which is completely rubbish, but not as rubbish as either going away and having to scrimp and save and watch the pennies, or worse going away and have me suffer a major attack so we don't leave the hotel room.
Also Firefox 4 is here. And disabling a few of my favourite add ons. Bugger

posted by BadMonkey @ 10:11 PM