I Use A Word That Don't Mean Nothin' Like Looptid
Well, I forced myself to go outside and into town. The good things about the trip were...i) I didn't spend any money
ii) I didn't hurt anybody, not even the guy I thought was following me
iii) I decided not to drink myself into oblivion this afternoon
iv) I listened to Digital Underground in the car
So those are all good things. But just all the people, out in couples and groups, enjoying the sunshine... it just made me feel more miserable and lonely, and also fed an unhealthy desire for carnage.
So I've decided that I'm going to stay inside again, and see if I can't find a way to address this problem I got goin' on. Why can't I keep my head together for more than a week eh? Fuckin' crazy man, fuckin' crazy.
I still want to go to the seaside though, but I don't want to go if I'm gonna feel like this when I get there.
posted by BadMonkey @ 3:05 PM
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