The Importance of Being Idle

Just Because You're Paranoid...

Remember how I foolishly said that I was feeling comfortable and happy at work? Well they sure as hell put a stop to that!
Yesterday was all meetings, one after the other, reviewing this and that and the other until, at five to five, I was taken into a room and told that I was to be given a disciplinary hearing next Tuesday! I was more than a little annoyed about that (think Hulk like rage), as I think I've made it more than clear over the past few months that I think I've done everything and more that the company could reasonably (and very often unreasonably) ask of me. I left work early, and wasn't really sure if I was gonna come back.
We talked it over, tried to find out the legal position and so on, but constantly came up empty. I didn't sleep last night, constantly haunted by the idea of going back. Why would I do that to myself? How would I behave? Is there anything I could or should do differently? I didn't know, but going back in the mood I was in would not be at all productive, in fact it would've been positively destructive (if you can be positively destructive). Luckily I had a late start, so I scouted about for a few jobs, called a few agencies and before I knew it had a mornings worth of interviews to attend. So I called in and told them that, and took the day off as a days holiday!
To tell the truth I think it was the best thing all round. I needed to not be in that place today, I really did, but I also needed some reassurance that I was still employable. I have no idea what will happen at the hearing next week, maybe I'll be out of a job by 11am, maybe not (I actually doubt I'll be dismissed, but then I doubted it'd go this far so who am I to judge?), but at least I know now that I can and will still be taken seriously by employers and that I haven't somehow rendered myself unemployable. On top of that getting to loaf about for the afternoon was very relaxing!
I can't say that I'm happy about the position that I'm in, I can't say that at all, and in a lot of ways I'm not particularly looking forward to going back, but on the other hand it's only three (working) days until the hearing, so that's not too bad. And on the plus side I am apparently the subject of much gossip and not a little outrage from colleagues, so there is some fun to be had when I go back tomorrow...

posted by BadMonkey @ 7:04 PM