The Importance of Being Idle

Motherfucker Got Blood All Over My Best Clown Suit!

I'm starting to get used to the experience of wearing my new glasses, but I still get the occasional dizzy spell and I am scared as hell of walking down stairs, cos the floor isn't quite where I think it is. Falling down in public is not cool!
Ronnie came over last night, I cooked dinner for us (nothing fancy, I'm not a very good cook) and we snuggled up and watched a couple of movies. Then this morning we had a leisurely breakfast, and rather bizarrely looked through all the photos from my honeymoon, then this afternoon we went for a wander and explored Abington Park, fed the birds and all that sort of thing. It was a really nice, relaxing, fun time, but all too soon it was over and she had to leave to get to work. I love her, and I love being with her, but for some reason I'm worrying that all this is gonna finish and I'll end up hurt and alone again. God knows why I'm worrying about this, its the sort of neediness that almost becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy, and there's certainly been no signs or indications that she's fed up with me but... I guess I still struggle with feelings of my own self-worth (or lack thereof) and I just don't think I'm good enough or interesting enough to hold her attention for any length of time. There is of course a strong possibility that I should just stop being so stupid. There are no guarantees, but right now things are amazingly good, and if we both love each other and are honest then there's no reason that things shouldn't STAY amazingly good. Yeah, I just need to relax and not be so stupid! hehe
This evening I have done... remarkably little. Talked to my Mum on the phone (yay for the weekly phone call!), and ermmm, had some dinner? And watched The House of 1000 Corpses! Now, I'd read a lot of shit 'bout this movie before I saw it (or The Devil's Rejects), but I have to say I liked it. Sure it doesn't have a strictly coherent narrative, but on the other hand it is one of the most effective nightmares on film I have ever seen, full of powerfully almost hallucinogenic imagery as I've ever seen in a horror movie. Couple that with some wonderful sets and set decoration (which really is awesomely dense and impressive), scary ass characters (Dr Satan's gonna stay with me I think! and Captain Spaulding is just a classic) and I think its a justifiable mini-classic. Well, I liked it!

posted by BadMonkey @ 10:35 PM